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I just really wanted to start by saying happy birthday firstly, I know I said it a bit yesterday but you really came so far compared to how low you were before like. Just looking back a decade from now you didn't even want to live anymore and now here you are with ur head up high READY TO BE TWENTY ONE!!! It really is such an achievement that you made it this far. btw DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT THE AGE GAP RNN OKAY?

I also wanted to just let you know how much of a difference you make in my life and not just in the ways you already know like you make me sooooper happy or anything like that (AHEM bc u do) but because its just how your character has kind of changed me in a way that I really do look out for people more knowing that its like not just me that does it uno? It is a bit hard to explain since I am TERRIBLE at explaining things but its okay bc I AM TRYING !! When you speak it literally always soothes my heart uno its like in such a way that I can't even explain it either, but the best way I can is that when you want me to talk to you while ur sitting next to me on the tram with ur eyes closed YEAH I KNOW it's always like that for me. Your smile and laughter honestly always make me melt and its not even one time its literally ALL THE FRCIKINGGG TIMEEEE like cmon CANT U GIVE ME A BREAK?! PLEASE?

CUTE US INTERMISSION

Not just yet though because I also wanna mention just how much fun we always have when we play together, like seriously nowadays its all that keeps me going sometimes like, it ACTUALLY makes my day uno wim? It's always been so nice and chil when we come back home and just watch too like ik you arent a fan of it too much but I REALLLLYYYYY like it. its all just so nice and so relaxing this how it be feeling FOR REALLL like I cant even- AHHHHHH ahem anyway for real tho u just blow me away (like that too).

It always feels so good to have ur birthday come around you know? It can really feel like a reminder of how far you've gotten in such a short time already its incredible just how short our lives are... and I got to spend this short life with someone as incredible as you and im so honoured to be yours, I could never have asked for anything as amazing as you because really HOW CAN I?! such perfection cant even be asked for it really is just in an ENTIRE LEAGUE OF ITS OWN just for how amazing you are. Just to explain how amazing u are compared to others

Here is my graph, you vs others

aghhh, why does it feel so SPECIALLL omg omg omg omg okay I actually need to chill out, also I hope you like the new color :3 it's fresh and different and I think makes it a bit nicer, switches up the pace uno? I have been reflecting from time to time you know, sometimes I am really happy with how I behave and sometimes I just feel like you're gonna leave me and go somewhere else, far far away and never talk to me again but. The longer I keep making mistakes and you stay with me, honestly you don't even begin to underSTAND how much it gives me in confidence in you. I know there are a lot of mistakes I make with u, but even throught those mistakes, you're still patient with me. I love you. I couldn't imagine a day in my life without you, your comfort, warmth, attention, kindness, compassion, beauty, love for religion, love for me, and most of all, your self. All of you. Head to toe. Top to Bottom. Inside and out. Honestly I'm so grateful that Allah سبحانه وتعالى sent you to me at a time where it was best. Getting the oppertunity to be in your life is literally the only thing that kept me between doing somewhat decent in life and absolutely failing every challenge put ahead of me in my life miserably. You're the one I work hard for. You're the reason I wanna go out in the world and work my hardest. Earn as much as I can. Succeed, thrive, It's all for you my love. I am so grateful to have you in my life and, the things that I have planned for today should hopefully be things that you will grow to enjoy, and enjoy LOTS!